Ditched!

"I ditched her" 
He proudly said this in front of his friends and moved out. 
I was standing thr dazed. Tryng to recaputulate what exactly happended. 
Did he actly say "he ditched me" 
Or, 
I heard it wrong 
I don't under his mentality. Actly I never did..one question popped in my mind that Did he want to prove that he is a stud n I am a stupid dumb girl who fell for him? 

If falling for him was a stupid act then I must confess now that I realised it long it.
I didn't break up wid him just because I was afraid to lose him.
I cannot afford to lose him. He was like my drug. He was my habit.I couldn't have easily walked out like he did.
I actualy took this relationship seriously.
I am not one of those who carries 'I don't give a damn' attitude.
I'm girly
I'm shy
I'm foolish(to fall for him)
I am SCARED of breakups.
Yes,when I say I'm scared I actually mean it.
Even now after months, those flashbacks of that day brings tears.
I don't wanna miss him.
But it appears as if I can't flush him out of my life like he did.
But I'm sure I'll move on someday.
P.s.some ppl du stay in our heart foreva,no matter that they did to us.
Second chances is always available for them

Cherry ♥