Everything was going wrong between us.. He was not the same.. He was ignoring me..lying to me.. We were hardly talking for few mins in those days.. I knew something is wrong.. I tried to ask him many times.. But he only said, "That's your miss understanding Honey, Everything is alright between us.. Dnt worry." .. And I tried to make myself believe that he is right.. I am just over thinking. But deep inside I knew that it was not the truth.
..Long distance relationship are always based on *Trust*.. Because you cant see each other..U have to believe watever your partner says..And I did the same.. One late night I suddenly woke up.. I took my cell and dialed his number.. I was shocked..I couldn't believed wat I heard.. It was showing busy.. I was afraid.. But still I told myself that he might be talking wid his friend.. I called him again.. He disconnected my call on second line.. It was still on waiting.. I tried to sleep.. Early morning it was 5 am ..I again tried to call him.. And damn.. it was still waiting.. Now I knew it was not his friend..
.. I knew the truth still I didnt wanted to come on conclusion so I asked him next day..
He answered, "She is just my friend Honey."
I asked him, " Is she is so important for you, that you cant even pick up my call on waiting..?"
He told, " She wouldn't felt good..If I would have kept her on waiting.."
I shouted , " And wat about me Damn it.. ! I was calling you till early morning.."
.. And That was first time I felt.. Yes I was being *Replaced* .. He was more concerned about someone Else's feelings than mine.. We argued alot.. Every second of argument I was dying with the pain that someone had stolen my place in his *life*.. Now that had became a routine.. Daily late night I used to call him and it was on waiting.. I messaged him..I was begging .. crying "please pick up my call once.." But he didnt.. He knew very well from wat I was suffering.. But he only replied, " I cant disconnect her call."
.. I spent all those night sleepless..crying.. fighting for my love.. But it was already too late..I never thought in dreams dat dis could happened with me.. Because I was in a false believe that I am doing more than he could expect from his partner.. But no..I was wrong.. Those days were like a hell for me.. He kept telling me that she is just a friend.. But I knew it was not truth.. I loved him so much that even was unable to break relation. Even just before my exam .. Whole night I was crying and next day I went for exam.. Paper was worst bcoz I didnt studied .. I realized wat wrong I was doing with my life.. I stopped myself der..
.. Few days later he realized his mistake or may be my value.. Watever..! He saw dat I was not more fighting with him.. He apologized for his mistake.. But wat was the use.. He couldnt give me my sleepless nights back.. and more dan dat my exams.. I accepted his apology but I lost respect for him..Even after my lots of try I was not able to make things right between us.. I suffered biggest pain of my life.. Being *Replaced*.. So I decided to close dat chapter.. It was hurting me but staying der was more difficult.. !
Khushi ♥
..Long distance relationship are always based on *Trust*.. Because you cant see each other..U have to believe watever your partner says..And I did the same.. One late night I suddenly woke up.. I took my cell and dialed his number.. I was shocked..I couldn't believed wat I heard.. It was showing busy.. I was afraid.. But still I told myself that he might be talking wid his friend.. I called him again.. He disconnected my call on second line.. It was still on waiting.. I tried to sleep.. Early morning it was 5 am ..I again tried to call him.. And damn.. it was still waiting.. Now I knew it was not his friend..
.. I knew the truth still I didnt wanted to come on conclusion so I asked him next day..
He answered, "She is just my friend Honey."
I asked him, " Is she is so important for you, that you cant even pick up my call on waiting..?"
He told, " She wouldn't felt good..If I would have kept her on waiting.."
I shouted , " And wat about me Damn it.. ! I was calling you till early morning.."
.. And That was first time I felt.. Yes I was being *Replaced* .. He was more concerned about someone Else's feelings than mine.. We argued alot.. Every second of argument I was dying with the pain that someone had stolen my place in his *life*.. Now that had became a routine.. Daily late night I used to call him and it was on waiting.. I messaged him..I was begging .. crying "please pick up my call once.." But he didnt.. He knew very well from wat I was suffering.. But he only replied, " I cant disconnect her call."
.. I spent all those night sleepless..crying.. fighting for my love.. But it was already too late..I never thought in dreams dat dis could happened with me.. Because I was in a false believe that I am doing more than he could expect from his partner.. But no..I was wrong.. Those days were like a hell for me.. He kept telling me that she is just a friend.. But I knew it was not truth.. I loved him so much that even was unable to break relation. Even just before my exam .. Whole night I was crying and next day I went for exam.. Paper was worst bcoz I didnt studied .. I realized wat wrong I was doing with my life.. I stopped myself der..
.. Few days later he realized his mistake or may be my value.. Watever..! He saw dat I was not more fighting with him.. He apologized for his mistake.. But wat was the use.. He couldnt give me my sleepless nights back.. and more dan dat my exams.. I accepted his apology but I lost respect for him..Even after my lots of try I was not able to make things right between us.. I suffered biggest pain of my life.. Being *Replaced*.. So I decided to close dat chapter.. It was hurting me but staying der was more difficult.. !
Khushi ♥
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