COZ NOW WE ARE FRIENDZ...!! ♥
8th April.2010 at 9:42 p.m. while having dinner I waz watching my favourite historical T.V. show with my family when I first time saw him...I casually spoke out to my brother..."Now a dayz talented new actorz are seen...cute guy isn't he...??" n in my mind I waz thinking this guy really has killer eyez...any girl could fall for them...but who knew what next waz planned for me by the almighty...!! ♥
Monthz passed by n gradually that show became my favourite show...I waz a die heart fan of it...even on itz facebook official page I waz extremely active n ofcourse one of the most popular memberz in that show'z facebook group...now a dayz whoz not on facebook...?? All actorz are on facebook too n so waz he...one day while surfing net I got a friend request of a guy with 2 mutual friendz...I waz about to ignore as I don't add unknownz but I thought of checking out his profile once...!!
I saw his profile pic...seemed like I had seen this guy before...I waz checking out more picz of him when I suddenly realized he is the same cute guy who comez in my favourite show...omg...may be I couldn't identify him coz of his changed get up in reality...suddenly a ray flashed in my heart...I thought why he sent me a friend request...?? but without wasting even a single minute I just clicked "accept"...I messaged him..."U play the main lead in that historical show right...??"
He replied "Yes...I saw u in our group...please don't take it in wrong sense...but u are really pretty...!! :)" ♥
I waz literally blushing after reading that comment...seemed like the best compliment I ever received...we started to chat on facebook...he resided in Mumbai n I am in Delhi...but how does the distance matter in friendship when facebook is there...we became really good friendz...after every episode he used to ask my special reviewz...day by day...week by week...our friendship grew stronger n stronger n even stronger...I really used to like talking to him...almost everyday we had night chatz on Facebook...!! ♥
5th April.2011 we were having our normal chit chatz when he suddenly asked for my number...omg...for a moment I just paused...coz I am a bit reserved by nature...I don't even give my number to known friendz so easily...n he is a good friend but in Mumbai...?? I don't have any friend outside Delhi...so I waz a bit reluctant but I really like him a lot as a friend...uhmm...I waz a bit confused...ohh gosh...what to do now...?? ♥
ITZ SOMETHING REALLY VERY SPECIAL ♥
I thought of giving him my number...he seemed very glad...n said that he will call me at night as he wantz to hear my voice...I waz quite confident that he will be mesmerized by my voice as I have a very sweet n delicate one...that night I waz waiting desperately for his call...tick tock tick tock...itz 11...12...12:30...he didn't called...I thought itz too late now he won't call...I waz a bit upset as well...I just closed my eyez n waz ready to sleep when suddenly my phone vibrated...it waz his number...omg...I got so excited...with full excitement I picked up n said "Hello"...!! ♥
He replied "HI" n I realized it waz the same voice as I used to hear in that show...I felt the same essence...even he liked my voice a lot...I could feel it somehow :p ...we started conversing...officially it waz our first direct conversation but there waz no formality...no nervousness...no embarassment...nothing...we were talking as if we knew eachother from yearz...hourz passed by...itz 4:30 a.m. n we didn't realized...I can never forget our first conversation...I got to know his nature...that how wonderful he is...not just by lookz but from heart as well...I realized he'z a genuiene guy...I didn't wanted to say good bye but I had to...!! ♥
Monthz passed by...almost everyday we had phone chatz...n our friendship just grew deeper n deeper with every talk we had...I got to know him really well...all his positive traitz...his negativitiez...n just everything...he became my "SPECIAL FRIEND"...a friend with whom I can share everything...a friend who will be there with me in my good n bad timez...a friend whom I can trust upon...a friend with whom I can just be me...!! ♥
One fine day he said that he has developed feelingz towardz me...I waz not so surprised hearing this coz somewhat even I feel the same for him...but how is this possible...?? How can one fall for someone without even meeting once...just imagine...a guy n a girl...they have never met...just seen a few picturez of one another...n they are falling for eachother...itz something not so common...itz been 8 monthz since we talking on phone for hourz almost n that too everyday n we don't get bored...this is something different...something really different...!! ♥
May be our special friendship waz meant to be...may be our "MAGNETIC BOND" waz meant to be...two magnetz who alwayz cling eachother n are incomplete without eachother...we were gradually falling for eachother...we had that perfect bond...that perfect tuning a couple could desire off...!! ♥
But this isn't right...I mean we are residing in different statez...we have never met...n God knowz if we will ever meet in future or not...so itz not right to take our friendship to that level that it becomez impossible for us to cope up without eachother...we should restrict our friendship before thingz get complicated...so we both mutually decided to end our friendship before it createz problemz for us in future...!!! ♥
YES...MAY BE ITZ LOVE...!! ♥
1st day passed by...we didn't talked...I just couldn't concentrate on any work...my mind waz just involved in him n his thoughtz...whole day long I just couldn't think anything else except him...only him n nothing else...!! ♥
2nd day passed...I started missing him badly...seemed as if monthz have passed by n we haven't conversed...I really wanted to speak to him but I somehow controlled myself...!! ♥
3rd day...I just couldn't bear it anymore so I decided to call him that night no matter what...but the same day evening he called me...I can't tell how much glad I waz from within when I heard his voice...I almost cried...he said he waz missing me badly n can't remain without talking to me...I can never forget that day...it waz indeed really special for both of us coz that very day we realized how much madly we were in "LOVE" with eachother...!! ♥
Itz quite evident we can't survive without eachother...suddenly in between our chit chatz he said he wanted to meet me...my heart just skipped a beat when he said that...but the question waz "HOW"...?? coz I can't come to Mumbai...I am a simple Delhi University girl...so he said he will come to Delhi to meet me on my birthday...3rd January.2012...OMG...I waz superduper excited...just 12 dayz to go...I just couldn't sleep that night just by the thought that how it would feel when he will be right infront of me...when we will have a direct eye contact...when he will converse with me face to face...how would he find me personally...?? Will he like me the same way he used to like on phone....?? What would happen next...?? ♥
All these questionz n thoughtz just took me away...dayz passed by...n everyday my curiousity to meet him just grew deeper n deeper...it waz New Year 2012...n we celebrated our New Year in our own way through whatz app n bbm...n our phone chatting ofcourse...2nd January went by in my shopping n self grooming ofcourse coz I really wanted to look my best tomorrow...since it waz my birthday n my first official date...I had planned to go to a lounge with him in a famous mall to make it the most special day for both of us..!! ♥
Finally the most awaited day..."3rd JANUARY.2012" has come...itz 12 a.m. n he is as expected the first one to wish me...he sent me self created 19 e-messagez since I turned 19...so so cute...these small thingz which he alwayz does for me makez me feel so special...he said that he will be at the mall at 11 a.m....I woke up early that morning n started to dress up...it waz chilling cold out there...U know how Delhi'z winter is...but I still kept fashion on priority :p ...I wore red corset with black jacket n paired it with denim n heelz with tied hairz...I waz looking sizzlingly hot...n waz hoping he will like me...itz 11 a.m. n he waz already standing at the entrance before me...I like punctual guyz...I saw him...he waz looking super cute...N the very next moment he saw me too...he started walking towardz me...!! ♥
My heart waz beating faster n even faster with every step I waz taking towardz him...butterfliez flying in my stomach...thousandz of thingz running in my mind...n the very next moment we were right infront of eachother looking straight into eachother'z eyez...that magical eye contact just took it all...we shaked handz n greeted eachother with a big smile...killer stuff seriously...I noticed he waz blushing...awww...so cute...but somehow I noticed he waz feeling a bit shy...may be coz I waz right infront of him...he wazn't able to open up...I could feel it...but someone had to break the ice so I thought of making him comfortable...I started conversing the same way I used to converse on phone...the same stupid talkz...the same laughter...the same facez I used to make...the same idiotic PJz...gradually he also came to his real sense...after a while we went to the lounge...as we settled down there he said he wanted to ask me something...n before I could say "Yes ask"...he smiled n said..."DO U LOVE ME...??" ♥
BEST FRIENDZ FOREVER [BFF] ♥
He asked "Do u love me..??" ♥
I waz a bit nervous but somehow I looked straight into his eyez n said exactly what I felt..."I don't know...itz just that I can't think of surviving without u now...u are one of the most crucial part of my life...I just want to be with u alwayz...itz just u who is in my mind 24x7...I care for u...I feel for u...may be I am addicted to u n if this addiction is LOVE they may be YES I LOVE U"..!! ♥
He smiled n said..."Dear u r the best girl I have ever met in my life but the thing is if we go into a relationship we will face many problemz in future...see I am from glamour industry n itz a part of my profession to play what so ever role I am being offered...sometimez even with girlz there are a few scenez which u won't like me doing in future...secondly we have distance problem as I can't visit Delhi quite often...Thirdly U are 4 yearz younger to me...there is lotz of difference in our maturity level n our thinking...u just say n do what u think is right without thinking itz future consequencez n to be honest I find u a bit immature at timez...n last but not the least as u know I am a one woman man so if I tend to marry u...will your parentz allow u to shift Mumbai...?? Your parentz don't even allow u to go out after 5 in evening"...!!
I thought for a while...he waz right as alwayz...our relationship won't work out as we don't have any future...n itz better not to start something when we know there is simply no solution to it...so before thingz get even more complicated we shouldn't make a move...I really love him a lot...although I am ready to make all possible adjustmentz for him coz I really want to be with him but just to keep respect of his thinking n wordz I thought of agreeing with him n letting him go...my priority is just to be with him no matter if I can't be his "LONG LAST LOVE"...I just smiled n said..."U are right...We will be "BEST FRIENDZ FOREVER" [BFF]...nothing more than that...!!" ♥
He gave me my birthday gift...it waz a beautiful bracelet...I wore it there only...it actually increased the grace of my hand...it waz the most precious gift I ever received...then he asked me for a dance...there waz a dim romantic music being played...that 15 minutez dance actually made my day...I waz feeling like a princess dancing with her prince charming...her "MR. RIGHT"...we were looking straight into each other'z eyez...I could feel the LOVE...my heart waz pounding the whole time...Love waz in the air...I wish I could pause that moment forever...I will never ever forget that feeling...!! ♥
Then we went out from there n started to hang around...our endless chatterz...our silly talkz...his stupid pjz...my cute facez...our little fightz...our idiotic teasingz...I didn't realized when those 7 hourz flew away...finally it waz time to say good bye...I didn't wanted to leave him...he hugged me...it waz the first time I hugged a guy like that...I just didn't wanted to leave him...I wish he could stay...he kissed my hand n said "I WILL REMEMBER THIS DAY MY WHOLE LIFE...LOVE U...!!" ♥
When I came back home I thought n made up mind that we can be nothing more than best friendz...so what if I can't be in his life as his lover...atleast I will be his BFF...several weekz passed by just like that...n our friendship continued...everything waz going fine when one incidence just changed the whole scenario....!!
BUT WHY U CAN'T BE WITH ME FOREVER...?? </3
One fine day one of my close friend in college proposed me...well to be honest I alwayz liked him but not as a boy friend...only as a friend...I told him about this very casually...I don't know what happened to him suddenly...he just didn't listened anything n simply asked me to say "YES" to that guy n cut the call with rage n attitude...after this I called him back several timez...he just literally ignored me...I don't know what had happened to him...What could be the reason for him being so rude n arrogant on such a mere thing...huh...!!
After a week he called me n apologized for his behaviour...he said he got extremely upset just by imagining me with someother guy n asked me not to talk with anyother guy like that...YES...he waz being possessive...may be he waz a bit jealous too...but whatever it waz I didn't liked his behaviour...we are just BFFz n he himself said he can't be more than BFF with me then why is he being jealous now...?? Why is he asking me to restrict myself from other guyz...?? Itz quite a lot evident he lovez me more than just a BFF...!! ♥
He said "Dear thingz aren't working out...when we parted...thingz didn't worked out...when we are BFFz...thingz again didn't worked out...if we go into a relationship thingz may again won't work out...what should we do now...!!"
I got really upset hearing this...I mean "IF THERE IS A WILL THERE IS DEFINATELY A WAY" so I just shouted my heart out without thinking anything -
"How can u be so sure thingz won't work out if we get into a relation...?? I understand u really well...I trust u...so whatz the big deal...n if itz distance problem then if love is pure...distance is just a number...n if u want u can come to Delhi...itz just 2 hourz by flight...we are compatible...we are made for eachother then why...WHY CAN'T YOU BE WITH ME FOREVER...??" ♥
Suddenly there waz silence all around...I think I spoke out a bit too much...I apologized but it waz too late...he simply cut the call saying "U are really immature...grow up...!!"
That day I realized that speaking your heart out is an offence...I just said what I felt...I can do anything for him...any adjustment to be with him...to be with my Mr. Right then why is he thinking so much...?? Love just happenz...is it my fault that I fell in love with an actor whoz not residing nearby...?? Whole night I waz crying thinking for a solution...but I could find nothing except darkness...!!
Next day morning I waz in college when I got to know that 9th March to 16th March.2012 we had a trip to Goa being planned...I waz not in a mood to go but my friendz insisted saying it will refresh my mood...somehow my parentz also agreed thinking it to be a change for me as all my friendz were going...I got his call at night...He again apologised for his behaviour...n I again forgave him asalwayz...I told him about my Goa trip...he said Goa is 7 hourz drive from his place...I suddenly got super excited thinking that I could meet him again...but before I could say anything he simply said..."I wish I could have come but due to shooting I think I will be busy those dayz...!!"
N those wordz broke my heart again...!! </3
Rabia ♥
8th April.2010 at 9:42 p.m. while having dinner I waz watching my favourite historical T.V. show with my family when I first time saw him...I casually spoke out to my brother..."Now a dayz talented new actorz are seen...cute guy isn't he...??" n in my mind I waz thinking this guy really has killer eyez...any girl could fall for them...but who knew what next waz planned for me by the almighty...!! ♥
Monthz passed by n gradually that show became my favourite show...I waz a die heart fan of it...even on itz facebook official page I waz extremely active n ofcourse one of the most popular memberz in that show'z facebook group...now a dayz whoz not on facebook...?? All actorz are on facebook too n so waz he...one day while surfing net I got a friend request of a guy with 2 mutual friendz...I waz about to ignore as I don't add unknownz but I thought of checking out his profile once...!!
I saw his profile pic...seemed like I had seen this guy before...I waz checking out more picz of him when I suddenly realized he is the same cute guy who comez in my favourite show...omg...may be I couldn't identify him coz of his changed get up in reality...suddenly a ray flashed in my heart...I thought why he sent me a friend request...?? but without wasting even a single minute I just clicked "accept"...I messaged him..."U play the main lead in that historical show right...??"
He replied "Yes...I saw u in our group...please don't take it in wrong sense...but u are really pretty...!! :)" ♥
I waz literally blushing after reading that comment...seemed like the best compliment I ever received...we started to chat on facebook...he resided in Mumbai n I am in Delhi...but how does the distance matter in friendship when facebook is there...we became really good friendz...after every episode he used to ask my special reviewz...day by day...week by week...our friendship grew stronger n stronger n even stronger...I really used to like talking to him...almost everyday we had night chatz on Facebook...!! ♥
5th April.2011 we were having our normal chit chatz when he suddenly asked for my number...omg...for a moment I just paused...coz I am a bit reserved by nature...I don't even give my number to known friendz so easily...n he is a good friend but in Mumbai...?? I don't have any friend outside Delhi...so I waz a bit reluctant but I really like him a lot as a friend...uhmm...I waz a bit confused...ohh gosh...what to do now...?? ♥
ITZ SOMETHING REALLY VERY SPECIAL ♥
I thought of giving him my number...he seemed very glad...n said that he will call me at night as he wantz to hear my voice...I waz quite confident that he will be mesmerized by my voice as I have a very sweet n delicate one...that night I waz waiting desperately for his call...tick tock tick tock...itz 11...12...12:30...he didn't called...I thought itz too late now he won't call...I waz a bit upset as well...I just closed my eyez n waz ready to sleep when suddenly my phone vibrated...it waz his number...omg...I got so excited...with full excitement I picked up n said "Hello"...!! ♥
He replied "HI" n I realized it waz the same voice as I used to hear in that show...I felt the same essence...even he liked my voice a lot...I could feel it somehow :p ...we started conversing...officially it waz our first direct conversation but there waz no formality...no nervousness...no embarassment...nothing...we were talking as if we knew eachother from yearz...hourz passed by...itz 4:30 a.m. n we didn't realized...I can never forget our first conversation...I got to know his nature...that how wonderful he is...not just by lookz but from heart as well...I realized he'z a genuiene guy...I didn't wanted to say good bye but I had to...!! ♥
Monthz passed by...almost everyday we had phone chatz...n our friendship just grew deeper n deeper with every talk we had...I got to know him really well...all his positive traitz...his negativitiez...n just everything...he became my "SPECIAL FRIEND"...a friend with whom I can share everything...a friend who will be there with me in my good n bad timez...a friend whom I can trust upon...a friend with whom I can just be me...!! ♥
One fine day he said that he has developed feelingz towardz me...I waz not so surprised hearing this coz somewhat even I feel the same for him...but how is this possible...?? How can one fall for someone without even meeting once...just imagine...a guy n a girl...they have never met...just seen a few picturez of one another...n they are falling for eachother...itz something not so common...itz been 8 monthz since we talking on phone for hourz almost n that too everyday n we don't get bored...this is something different...something really different...!! ♥
May be our special friendship waz meant to be...may be our "MAGNETIC BOND" waz meant to be...two magnetz who alwayz cling eachother n are incomplete without eachother...we were gradually falling for eachother...we had that perfect bond...that perfect tuning a couple could desire off...!! ♥
But this isn't right...I mean we are residing in different statez...we have never met...n God knowz if we will ever meet in future or not...so itz not right to take our friendship to that level that it becomez impossible for us to cope up without eachother...we should restrict our friendship before thingz get complicated...so we both mutually decided to end our friendship before it createz problemz for us in future...!!! ♥
YES...MAY BE ITZ LOVE...!! ♥
1st day passed by...we didn't talked...I just couldn't concentrate on any work...my mind waz just involved in him n his thoughtz...whole day long I just couldn't think anything else except him...only him n nothing else...!! ♥
2nd day passed...I started missing him badly...seemed as if monthz have passed by n we haven't conversed...I really wanted to speak to him but I somehow controlled myself...!! ♥
3rd day...I just couldn't bear it anymore so I decided to call him that night no matter what...but the same day evening he called me...I can't tell how much glad I waz from within when I heard his voice...I almost cried...he said he waz missing me badly n can't remain without talking to me...I can never forget that day...it waz indeed really special for both of us coz that very day we realized how much madly we were in "LOVE" with eachother...!! ♥
Itz quite evident we can't survive without eachother...suddenly in between our chit chatz he said he wanted to meet me...my heart just skipped a beat when he said that...but the question waz "HOW"...?? coz I can't come to Mumbai...I am a simple Delhi University girl...so he said he will come to Delhi to meet me on my birthday...3rd January.2012...OMG...I waz superduper excited...just 12 dayz to go...I just couldn't sleep that night just by the thought that how it would feel when he will be right infront of me...when we will have a direct eye contact...when he will converse with me face to face...how would he find me personally...?? Will he like me the same way he used to like on phone....?? What would happen next...?? ♥
All these questionz n thoughtz just took me away...dayz passed by...n everyday my curiousity to meet him just grew deeper n deeper...it waz New Year 2012...n we celebrated our New Year in our own way through whatz app n bbm...n our phone chatting ofcourse...2nd January went by in my shopping n self grooming ofcourse coz I really wanted to look my best tomorrow...since it waz my birthday n my first official date...I had planned to go to a lounge with him in a famous mall to make it the most special day for both of us..!! ♥
Finally the most awaited day..."3rd JANUARY.2012" has come...itz 12 a.m. n he is as expected the first one to wish me...he sent me self created 19 e-messagez since I turned 19...so so cute...these small thingz which he alwayz does for me makez me feel so special...he said that he will be at the mall at 11 a.m....I woke up early that morning n started to dress up...it waz chilling cold out there...U know how Delhi'z winter is...but I still kept fashion on priority :p ...I wore red corset with black jacket n paired it with denim n heelz with tied hairz...I waz looking sizzlingly hot...n waz hoping he will like me...itz 11 a.m. n he waz already standing at the entrance before me...I like punctual guyz...I saw him...he waz looking super cute...N the very next moment he saw me too...he started walking towardz me...!! ♥
My heart waz beating faster n even faster with every step I waz taking towardz him...butterfliez flying in my stomach...thousandz of thingz running in my mind...n the very next moment we were right infront of eachother looking straight into eachother'z eyez...that magical eye contact just took it all...we shaked handz n greeted eachother with a big smile...killer stuff seriously...I noticed he waz blushing...awww...so cute...but somehow I noticed he waz feeling a bit shy...may be coz I waz right infront of him...he wazn't able to open up...I could feel it...but someone had to break the ice so I thought of making him comfortable...I started conversing the same way I used to converse on phone...the same stupid talkz...the same laughter...the same facez I used to make...the same idiotic PJz...gradually he also came to his real sense...after a while we went to the lounge...as we settled down there he said he wanted to ask me something...n before I could say "Yes ask"...he smiled n said..."DO U LOVE ME...??" ♥
BEST FRIENDZ FOREVER [BFF] ♥
He asked "Do u love me..??" ♥
I waz a bit nervous but somehow I looked straight into his eyez n said exactly what I felt..."I don't know...itz just that I can't think of surviving without u now...u are one of the most crucial part of my life...I just want to be with u alwayz...itz just u who is in my mind 24x7...I care for u...I feel for u...may be I am addicted to u n if this addiction is LOVE they may be YES I LOVE U"..!! ♥
He smiled n said..."Dear u r the best girl I have ever met in my life but the thing is if we go into a relationship we will face many problemz in future...see I am from glamour industry n itz a part of my profession to play what so ever role I am being offered...sometimez even with girlz there are a few scenez which u won't like me doing in future...secondly we have distance problem as I can't visit Delhi quite often...Thirdly U are 4 yearz younger to me...there is lotz of difference in our maturity level n our thinking...u just say n do what u think is right without thinking itz future consequencez n to be honest I find u a bit immature at timez...n last but not the least as u know I am a one woman man so if I tend to marry u...will your parentz allow u to shift Mumbai...?? Your parentz don't even allow u to go out after 5 in evening"...!!
I thought for a while...he waz right as alwayz...our relationship won't work out as we don't have any future...n itz better not to start something when we know there is simply no solution to it...so before thingz get even more complicated we shouldn't make a move...I really love him a lot...although I am ready to make all possible adjustmentz for him coz I really want to be with him but just to keep respect of his thinking n wordz I thought of agreeing with him n letting him go...my priority is just to be with him no matter if I can't be his "LONG LAST LOVE"...I just smiled n said..."U are right...We will be "BEST FRIENDZ FOREVER" [BFF]...nothing more than that...!!" ♥
He gave me my birthday gift...it waz a beautiful bracelet...I wore it there only...it actually increased the grace of my hand...it waz the most precious gift I ever received...then he asked me for a dance...there waz a dim romantic music being played...that 15 minutez dance actually made my day...I waz feeling like a princess dancing with her prince charming...her "MR. RIGHT"...we were looking straight into each other'z eyez...I could feel the LOVE...my heart waz pounding the whole time...Love waz in the air...I wish I could pause that moment forever...I will never ever forget that feeling...!! ♥
Then we went out from there n started to hang around...our endless chatterz...our silly talkz...his stupid pjz...my cute facez...our little fightz...our idiotic teasingz...I didn't realized when those 7 hourz flew away...finally it waz time to say good bye...I didn't wanted to leave him...he hugged me...it waz the first time I hugged a guy like that...I just didn't wanted to leave him...I wish he could stay...he kissed my hand n said "I WILL REMEMBER THIS DAY MY WHOLE LIFE...LOVE U...!!" ♥
When I came back home I thought n made up mind that we can be nothing more than best friendz...so what if I can't be in his life as his lover...atleast I will be his BFF...several weekz passed by just like that...n our friendship continued...everything waz going fine when one incidence just changed the whole scenario....!!
BUT WHY U CAN'T BE WITH ME FOREVER...?? </3
One fine day one of my close friend in college proposed me...well to be honest I alwayz liked him but not as a boy friend...only as a friend...I told him about this very casually...I don't know what happened to him suddenly...he just didn't listened anything n simply asked me to say "YES" to that guy n cut the call with rage n attitude...after this I called him back several timez...he just literally ignored me...I don't know what had happened to him...What could be the reason for him being so rude n arrogant on such a mere thing...huh...!!
After a week he called me n apologized for his behaviour...he said he got extremely upset just by imagining me with someother guy n asked me not to talk with anyother guy like that...YES...he waz being possessive...may be he waz a bit jealous too...but whatever it waz I didn't liked his behaviour...we are just BFFz n he himself said he can't be more than BFF with me then why is he being jealous now...?? Why is he asking me to restrict myself from other guyz...?? Itz quite a lot evident he lovez me more than just a BFF...!! ♥
He said "Dear thingz aren't working out...when we parted...thingz didn't worked out...when we are BFFz...thingz again didn't worked out...if we go into a relationship thingz may again won't work out...what should we do now...!!"
I got really upset hearing this...I mean "IF THERE IS A WILL THERE IS DEFINATELY A WAY" so I just shouted my heart out without thinking anything -
"How can u be so sure thingz won't work out if we get into a relation...?? I understand u really well...I trust u...so whatz the big deal...n if itz distance problem then if love is pure...distance is just a number...n if u want u can come to Delhi...itz just 2 hourz by flight...we are compatible...we are made for eachother then why...WHY CAN'T YOU BE WITH ME FOREVER...??" ♥
Suddenly there waz silence all around...I think I spoke out a bit too much...I apologized but it waz too late...he simply cut the call saying "U are really immature...grow up...!!"
That day I realized that speaking your heart out is an offence...I just said what I felt...I can do anything for him...any adjustment to be with him...to be with my Mr. Right then why is he thinking so much...?? Love just happenz...is it my fault that I fell in love with an actor whoz not residing nearby...?? Whole night I waz crying thinking for a solution...but I could find nothing except darkness...!!
Next day morning I waz in college when I got to know that 9th March to 16th March.2012 we had a trip to Goa being planned...I waz not in a mood to go but my friendz insisted saying it will refresh my mood...somehow my parentz also agreed thinking it to be a change for me as all my friendz were going...I got his call at night...He again apologised for his behaviour...n I again forgave him asalwayz...I told him about my Goa trip...he said Goa is 7 hourz drive from his place...I suddenly got super excited thinking that I could meet him again...but before I could say anything he simply said..."I wish I could have come but due to shooting I think I will be busy those dayz...!!"
N those wordz broke my heart again...!! </3
Rabia ♥
where is its next part??/
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