MAGNETIC BOND - ALWAYZ N FOREVER...!! ♥ PART1-5

COZ NOW WE ARE FRIENDZ...!! ♥

8th April.2010 at 9:42 p.m. while having dinner I waz watching my favourite historical T.V. show with my family when I first time saw him...I casually spoke out to my brother..."Now a dayz talented new actorz are seen...cute guy isn't he...??" n in my mind I waz thinking this guy really has killer eyez...any girl could fall for them...but who knew what next waz planned for me by the almighty...!! ♥

Monthz passed by n gradually that show became my favourite show...I waz a die heart fan of it...even on itz facebook official page I waz extremely active n ofcourse one of the most popular memberz in that show'z facebook group...now a dayz whoz not on facebook...?? All actorz are on facebook too n so waz he...one day while surfing net I got a friend request of a guy with 2 mutual friendz...I waz about to ignore as I don't add unknownz but I thought of checking out his profile once...!!

I saw his profile pic...seemed like I had seen this guy before...I waz checking out more picz of him when I suddenly realized he is the same cute guy who comez in my favourite show...omg...may be I couldn't identify him coz of his changed get up in reality...suddenly a ray flashed in my heart...I thought why he sent me a friend request...?? but without wasting even a single minute I just clicked "accept"...I messaged him..."U play the main lead in that historical show right...??"

He replied "Yes...I saw u in our group...please don't take it in wrong sense...but u are really pretty...!! :)" ♥

I waz literally blushing after reading that comment...seemed like the best compliment I ever received...we started to chat on facebook...he resided in Mumbai n I am in Delhi...but how does the distance matter in friendship when facebook is there...we became really good friendz...after every episode he used to ask my special reviewz...day by day...week by week...our friendship grew stronger n stronger n even stronger...I really used to like talking to him...almost everyday we had night chatz on Facebook...!! ♥

5th April.2011 we were having our normal chit chatz when he suddenly asked for my number...omg...for a moment I just paused...coz I am a bit reserved by nature...I don't even give my number to known friendz so easily...n he is a good friend but in Mumbai...?? I don't have any friend outside Delhi...so I waz a bit reluctant but I really like him a lot as a friend...uhmm...I waz a bit confused...ohh gosh...what to do now...?? ♥
ITZ SOMETHING REALLY VERY SPECIAL ♥

I thought of giving him my number...he seemed very glad...n said that he will call me at night as he wantz to hear my voice...I waz quite confident that he will be mesmerized by my voice as I have a very sweet n delicate one...that night I waz waiting desperately for his call...tick tock tick tock...itz 11...12...12:30...he didn't called...I thought itz too late now he won't call...I waz a bit upset as well...I just closed my eyez n waz ready to sleep when suddenly my phone vibrated...it waz his number...omg...I got so excited...with full excitement I picked up n said "Hello"...!! ♥

He replied "HI" n I realized it waz the same voice as I used to hear in that show...I felt the same essence...even he liked my voice a lot...I could feel it somehow :p ...we started conversing...officially it waz our first direct conversation but there waz no formality...no nervousness...no embarassment...nothing...we were talking as if we knew eachother from yearz...hourz passed by...itz 4:30 a.m. n we didn't realized...I can never forget our first conversation...I got to know his nature...that how wonderful he is...not just by lookz but from heart as well...I realized he'z a genuiene guy...I didn't wanted to say good bye but I had to...!! ♥

Monthz passed by...almost everyday we had phone chatz...n our friendship just grew deeper n deeper with every talk we had...I got to know him really well...all his positive traitz...his negativitiez...n just everything...he became my "SPECIAL FRIEND"...a friend with whom I can share everything...a friend who will be there with me in my good n bad timez...a friend whom I can trust upon...a friend with whom I can just be me...!! ♥

One fine day he said that he has developed feelingz towardz me...I waz not so surprised hearing this coz somewhat even I feel the same for him...but how is this possible...?? How can one fall for someone without even meeting once...just imagine...a guy n a girl...they have never met...just seen a few picturez of one another...n they are falling for eachother...itz something not so common...itz been 8 monthz since we talking on phone for hourz almost n that too everyday n we don't get bored...this is something different...something really different...!! ♥

May be our special friendship waz meant to be...may be our "MAGNETIC BOND" waz meant to be...two magnetz who alwayz cling eachother n are incomplete without eachother...we were gradually falling for eachother...we had that perfect bond...that perfect tuning a couple could desire off...!! ♥

But this isn't right...I mean we are residing in different statez...we have never met...n God knowz if we will ever meet in future or not...so itz not right to take our friendship to that level that it becomez impossible for us to cope up without eachother...we should restrict our friendship before thingz get complicated...so we both mutually decided to end our friendship before it createz problemz for us in future...!!! ♥

YES...MAY BE ITZ LOVE...!! ♥

1st day passed by...we didn't talked...I just couldn't concentrate on any work...my mind waz just involved in him n his thoughtz...whole day long I just couldn't think anything else except him...only him n nothing else...!! ♥

2nd day passed...I started missing him badly...seemed as if monthz have passed by n we haven't conversed...I really wanted to speak to him but I somehow controlled myself...!! ♥

3rd day...I just couldn't bear it anymore so I decided to call him that night no matter what...but the same day evening he called me...I can't tell how much glad I waz from within when I heard his voice...I almost cried...he said he waz missing me badly n can't remain without talking to me...I can never forget that day...it waz indeed really special for both of us coz that very day we realized how much madly we were in "LOVE" with eachother...!! ♥

Itz quite evident we can't survive without eachother...suddenly in between our chit chatz he said he wanted to meet me...my heart just skipped a beat when he said that...but the question waz "HOW"...?? coz I can't come to Mumbai...I am a simple Delhi University girl...so he said he will come to Delhi to meet me on my birthday...3rd January.2012...OMG...I waz superduper excited...just 12 dayz to go...I just couldn't sleep that night just by the thought that how it would feel when he will be right infront of me...when we will have a direct eye contact...when he will converse with me face to face...how would he find me personally...?? Will he like me the same way he used to like on phone....?? What would happen next...?? ♥

All these questionz n thoughtz just took me away...dayz passed by...n everyday my curiousity to meet him just grew deeper n deeper...it waz New Year 2012...n we celebrated our New Year in our own way through whatz app n bbm...n our phone chatting ofcourse...2nd January went by in my shopping n self grooming ofcourse coz I really wanted to look my best tomorrow...since it waz my birthday n my first official date...I had planned to go to a lounge with him in a famous mall to make it the most special day for both of us..!! ♥

Finally the most awaited day..."3rd JANUARY.2012" has come...itz 12 a.m. n he is as expected the first one to wish me...he sent me self created 19 e-messagez since I turned 19...so so cute...these small thingz which he alwayz does for me makez me feel so special...he said that he will be at the mall at 11 a.m....I woke up early that morning n started to dress up...it waz chilling cold out there...U know how Delhi'z winter is...but I still kept fashion on priority :p ...I wore red corset with black jacket n paired it with denim n heelz with tied hairz...I waz looking sizzlingly hot...n waz hoping he will like me...itz 11 a.m. n he waz already standing at the entrance before me...I like punctual guyz...I saw him...he waz looking super cute...N the very next moment he saw me too...he started walking towardz me...!! ♥

My heart waz beating faster n even faster with every step I waz taking towardz him...butterfliez flying in my stomach...thousandz of thingz running in my mind...n the very next moment we were right infront of eachother looking straight into eachother'z eyez...that magical eye contact just took it all...we shaked handz n greeted eachother with a big smile...killer stuff seriously...I noticed he waz blushing...awww...so cute...but somehow I noticed he waz feeling a bit shy...may be coz I waz right infront of him...he wazn't able to open up...I could feel it...but someone had to break the ice so I thought of making him comfortable...I started conversing the same way I used to converse on phone...the same stupid talkz...the same laughter...the same facez I used to make...the same idiotic PJz...gradually he also came to his real sense...after a while we went to the lounge...as we settled down there he said he wanted to ask me something...n before I could say "Yes ask"...he smiled n said..."DO U LOVE ME...??" ♥

BEST FRIENDZ FOREVER [BFF] ♥

He asked "Do u love me..??" ♥

I waz a bit nervous but somehow I looked straight into his eyez n said exactly what I felt..."I don't know...itz just that I can't think of surviving without u now...u are one of the most crucial part of my life...I just want to be with u alwayz...itz just u who is in my mind 24x7...I care for u...I feel for u...may be I am addicted to u n if this addiction is LOVE they may be YES I LOVE U"..!! ♥

He smiled n said..."Dear u r the best girl I have ever met in my life but the thing is if we go into a relationship we will face many problemz in future...see I am from glamour industry n itz a part of my profession to play what so ever role I am being offered...sometimez even with girlz there are a few scenez which u won't like me doing in future...secondly we have distance problem as I can't visit Delhi quite often...Thirdly U are 4 yearz younger to me...there is lotz of difference in our maturity level n our thinking...u just say n do what u think is right without thinking itz future consequencez n to be honest I find u a bit immature at timez...n last but not the least as u know I am a one woman man so if I tend to marry u...will your parentz allow u to shift Mumbai...?? Your parentz don't even allow u to go out after 5 in evening"...!!

I thought for a while...he waz right as alwayz...our relationship won't work out as we don't have any future...n itz better not to start something when we know there is simply no solution to it...so before thingz get even more complicated we shouldn't make a move...I really love him a lot...although I am ready to make all possible adjustmentz for him coz I really want to be with him but just to keep respect of his thinking n wordz I thought of agreeing with him n letting him go...my priority is just to be with him no matter if I can't be his "LONG LAST LOVE"...I just smiled n said..."U are right...We will be "BEST FRIENDZ FOREVER" [BFF]...nothing more than that...!!" ♥

He gave me my birthday gift...it waz a beautiful bracelet...I wore it there only...it actually increased the grace of my hand...it waz the most precious gift I ever received...then he asked me for a dance...there waz a dim romantic music being played...that 15 minutez dance actually made my day...I waz feeling like a princess dancing with her prince charming...her "MR. RIGHT"...we were looking straight into each other'z eyez...I could feel the LOVE...my heart waz pounding the whole time...Love waz in the air...I wish I could pause that moment forever...I will never ever forget that feeling...!! ♥

Then we went out from there n started to hang around...our endless chatterz...our silly talkz...his stupid pjz...my cute facez...our little fightz...our idiotic teasingz...I didn't realized when those 7 hourz flew away...finally it waz time to say good bye...I didn't wanted to leave him...he hugged me...it waz the first time I hugged a guy like that...I just didn't wanted to leave him...I wish he could stay...he kissed my hand n said "I WILL REMEMBER THIS DAY MY WHOLE LIFE...LOVE U...!!" ♥

When I came back home I thought n made up mind that we can be nothing more than best friendz...so what if I can't be in his life as his lover...atleast I will be his BFF...several weekz passed by just like that...n our friendship continued...everything waz going fine when one incidence just changed the whole scenario....!!

BUT WHY U CAN'T BE WITH ME FOREVER...?? </3

One fine day one of my close friend in college proposed me...well to be honest I alwayz liked him but not as a boy friend...only as a friend...I told him about this very casually...I don't know what happened to him suddenly...he just didn't listened anything n simply asked me to say "YES" to that guy n cut the call with rage n attitude...after this I called him back several timez...he just literally ignored me...I don't know what had happened to him...What could be the reason for him being so rude n arrogant on such a mere thing...huh...!!

After a week he called me n apologized for his behaviour...he said he got extremely upset just by imagining me with someother guy n asked me not to talk with anyother guy like that...YES...he waz being possessive...may be he waz a bit jealous too...but whatever it waz I didn't liked his behaviour...we are just BFFz n he himself said he can't be more than BFF with me then why is he being jealous now...?? Why is he asking me to restrict myself from other guyz...?? Itz quite a lot evident he lovez me more than just a BFF...!! ♥

He said "Dear thingz aren't working out...when we parted...thingz didn't worked out...when we are BFFz...thingz again didn't worked out...if we go into a relationship thingz may again won't work out...what should we do now...!!"

I got really upset hearing this...I mean "IF THERE IS A WILL THERE IS DEFINATELY A WAY" so I just shouted my heart out without thinking anything -
"How can u be so sure thingz won't work out if we get into a relation...?? I understand u really well...I trust u...so whatz the big deal...n if itz distance problem then if love is pure...distance is just a number...n if u want u can come to Delhi...itz just 2 hourz by flight...we are compatible...we are made for eachother then why...WHY CAN'T YOU BE WITH ME FOREVER...??" ♥

Suddenly there waz silence all around...I think I spoke out a bit too much...I apologized but it waz too late...he simply cut the call saying "U are really immature...grow up...!!"

That day I realized that speaking your heart out is an offence...I just said what I felt...I can do anything for him...any adjustment to be with him...to be with my Mr. Right then why is he thinking so much...?? Love just happenz...is it my fault that I fell in love with an actor whoz not residing nearby...?? Whole night I waz crying thinking for a solution...but I could find nothing except darkness...!!

Next day morning I waz in college when I got to know that 9th March to 16th March.2012 we had a trip to Goa being planned...I waz not in a mood to go but my friendz insisted saying it will refresh my mood...somehow my parentz also agreed thinking it to be a change for me as all my friendz were going...I got his call at night...He again apologised for his behaviour...n I again forgave him asalwayz...I told him about my Goa trip...he said Goa is 7 hourz drive from his place...I suddenly got super excited thinking that I could meet him again...but before I could say anything he simply said..."I wish I could have come but due to shooting I think I will be busy those dayz...!!"

N those wordz broke my heart again...!! </3
Rabia ♥

Memories... ♥

Every moment we spend with that special person leaves footprints on our heart.. But it becomes more special when it is unexpected.. Unplanned... ♥

.. " From last 3 days we are trying to meet.. But unable to.. I am missing you.." Got his message..

.. " We will meet today for sure.." I replied him

.." But where we will go sweetheart.. We need a place to meet, And because of ' Mumbai Bandh ' all cafe, resto are closed.." He said..

.." We can still meet for 5 mins atleast.." Even I wanted to meet him..

.. " Ok you be ready after dinner.. I will pick you up.. Cya.." He agreed..

.. " Where are we going..? " I asked him as soon as he asked me to sit on bike..

.. " I dont know.. You sit .." He chuckled.. He had something in mind for sure..

.. Because of 'Bandh', roads were empty.. We hardly saw people or vehicles on road.. Watching Mumbai like this was strange.. A city dat never sleeps was empty dat day.. He likes speed, and road was empty too.. We were enjoying the ride.. Winter night... Cool Breeze.. Bike Ride and he is wid me.. What more I can ask.. We were just roaming here and der.. As usual my tape was on.. I was talking everything and anything.. ( Sumtyms I wonder how can I do that 24X7.. Specially when he is wid me... :P )

.. Usually Mumbai Roads have so much traffic.. That we can never expect ride like this... But that day thankfully we got a chance to enjoy that.. I was holding him.. Felt bit cold.. I was kind of shivering.. But I didnt told him anything.. I dnt know from where he realized that and he slowed down bike.. And asked me, " Feeling better now..? " I was surprised widout even saying he knew that.. I smiled, " Yes.. But how u came to know..? "

.. " I am your sweetheart.. Stupid.. ! " He chuckled.. I hugged him more tighter..

.." I love you.. " I whispered in his ears.. " But I love you more.. " He smiled and said..

.. After sumtym, he suddenly parked his bike on one side of road.. And asked me to get down.. I was wondering.. He took my hand and said.. " Lets walk.. " I smiled..

.. We were walking on Highway.. I was loving that moment.. Cool air.. Empty Roads.. Peaceful atmosphere.. His hands in mine.. It was all perfect.. He was talking now and I was listening.. ( For A Change.. :P ) .. He said how he is planing to spend his life with me.. About our future.. Wat dreams he have planned for US.. Everything.. It was just like a *Dream* for me.. I was blushing...

.. When a Guy, You love.. talks about their future with you.. Its not less than *Heaven* for any girl.. I just wanted to catch all that moments in My Heart.. Watever moments we spent was not planned.. But it was the best.. Today m cherishing these memories..

.. " When you are in Love.. All little moments make You feel Happiest.. Little things he say makes your heart melt.. And these moments gives you the reason to Be wid him..You will never know value of moments till it becomes a lovely memory.. " :) :)

.. Khushi ♥

When Its difficult to Decide... ♥

" Wat the hell you are doing Khushi..?? Keep your cell aside and for god sake complete your work.." My office colleague almost shouted on me..

.. It was almost 8 days.. I had not received a single message or call from him.. No, we didnt fought.. I was totally unaware about the reason why he was doing so.. But it was hurting me a lot.. Since he was back to his hometown after his Graduation exam, he was changed... We used to talk for hourss when he was at hostel.. And things had changed completely.. He hardly used to message me once in 3-4 days.. Dat too just reply of my messages..

..I wasnt able to wait .. I picked up phone and dialed his number, He picked up..

.. " Hello.. Wat r u doing..?? " I asked..

.. " Nothing just watching Tv.. " He replied as if he was not interested..

.. " Cant you do one message?.. 8 day have passed and u even didnt cared to ask me How I am..? " I was upset..

.. " Look, I am at home now.. So better you dont complain.. " He said..

.." I know you are at home.. But one message..? I dont think its impossible for you to type a message.." I was about to cry..

.. " Oh please dont start it all again.. " He was damn rude..

.. My eyes filled with tears.. " Ok Sorry, I wont disturb you.." I kept the phone..

.. I thought.. Was it so difficult for him to talk with me once in a day..? When he was in hostel.. I was at my home, still I used to talk with him for hours.. I decided, " I will not call or message him till he dont try to reach me.." .. I knew it was difficult, Cutting all contacts with the person with whom you used to spend maxi hours..

.. Days were passing.. I used to check my cell 100 times a day.. I was eagerly waiting for his message/call. But he didnt.. Every night I used to sleep only after talking to him.. But thn I used to cry to make myself sleep.. I didnt understood why all things went so worst.. I wanted him to ask, Wats my mistake.. I wanted answers.. But whenever I tried, he didnt bothered.. He always told me the same reason.. " I am at home so cant talk with you.. "

.. Life was changing.. Day by day I got used to it.. I tried to make my life better without him.. It was difficult but I had no option.. I didnt wanted to beg in front of him.. I made myself strong.. Finally the day came when his absence was not making much diff to me.. I was moving ahead in my life..Months passed & Days were going smoothly.. I turned my attention to office.. studies and friends..

.. I received hardly 4-5 calls in 2 months.. And dat too I behaved very normally.. I didnt asked him why he was nt calling me or nothing.. He might be noticed dat.. But I didnt cared... I loved him, But I guessed I did enough to save that relation.. After all I was not the only one who needed it.. He realized that his life was empty without me.. He came back to me.. Asked for forgiveness.. He wanted me back in his life.. But I refused.. I could not forget all days & night he made me suffer without any mistake.. He took me for granted.. He just cant be with me whenever he wants..

.. When there comes a time, Where you fell that its hurting a lot to hold on.. Girls trust me Move on.. ! It may be difficult but Its always better to keep Ur pride up... You cant beg for keeping some one in your life.. If they know your value, You will have place in their life.. ! You dont have to fight every day for it.. Today I am happy I moved on.. :)

.. "They always want you back, When they see You Happy Without them.. " ♥ ♥

.. Khushi ♥

IS IT MY FAULT THAT I AM A GIRL...?? ♥

Monday evening while I waz surfing net I gotta know a dreadful incidence that happened Sunday night with a 23 year old girl in Delhi...she waz at Select city walk mall enjoying with her friend...around 8 p.m. they started for home after watching a movie...they were happy...life waz going smooth but until when...??

Who knew that boarding a private bus can be so dreadful that it can change the entire life of a girl...?? Yes...!! They boarded a bus to go home when 6-8 beastz...bloody animalz beated them with iron rodz...stripped them...gang raped the girl...looted them...n threw their bodiez away just like that after their pleasure got over...what sort of inhumanity is this...??

I am a girl...n when I gotta know about this incidence tearz rolled down my eyez...how can they be so inhuman...?? Even animalz are better then them...that girl is in sheer pain right now...striving to survive...she waz almost dead...her life is ruined after this incidence...n what about those beastz...?? I think even hanging them to death is a mere punishment for this brutal crime...what I feel is even those beastz should be given the same amount of torture...the same amount of pain...the same beating...the same injuriez...the same insult which they gave to those poor couple...!!

I being a DELHITE is extremely upset...I mean is it my fault that I am a girl...?? Don't I have right to live independently...?? Why I can't wear what I want to...?? Why I can't go out late night...well in this incidence I guess 8 p.m. isn't late night either...so basically a girl in Delhi is so unsafe that she can't do what she wantz to...she can't live an independent life in a so called "Democratic India"...coz of some pervert beastz hunting for sex all around...!!

Itz high time to bring a change in our system guyz...we have to wake up coz itz we..."THE YOUTH" who can bring the change...today itz "SHE"...tomorrow it can be "YOU"...we need to make the lawz against rape so strict that no one even darez to think about it...we have to raise our voice...share this post as much as u can so that everyone comez to know about it...thank you...!!

Rabia ♥

♥ Best Buddies Forever.. ♥

Back in year 2010. I logged into My Orkut account.. Friends >> Prem >> Remove.. "Are sure You want to Remove Prem from Your friend list..?? " I clicked Yes.. *Prem has been removed from your Friend List..* Message appeared.. !!

.. " Khushi, this is the 6th time You have removed Prem from your friend list.. Why cant you both stay without fighting with each other.. " Got a scrap from Sheetal.. ( Our mutual friend ).

.. I replied, " I dnt want to talk with him ever now.. I dnt want to listen anything about him.." I was pissed off.

.. " Look at the reason you both are fighting for.. You both are just too much.. Grow up girl.." She was upset..

.. Prem was my Orkut friend.. Start of our friendship was not so good.. We were fighting with each other every single month.. And den remove from Friend list.. Thankfully I have got many Best Buddies from Orkut. We have few friends in common.. All others were fed up with our fights.. Every time either he removed me or I removed him..

.. 2 months after I removed him.. It was afternoon.. I was not on my desk, roaming here and dere in office.

.. Some one shouted my name, " Khushiiiiiii, Pick up your phone.. Its ringing from last 5 mins.."

.. I rushed to my desk, I checked, 6 missed calls from Prem.. I was shocked.. Before I can think, Prem calling.. appeared on my screen.. I picked up..

.. " Hello..? " I said

.. " Yaar, Will you please suggest me a good song.. I want to change my caller tune.. " He asked..

..I was surprised.. I laughed.. " Are you mad Prem..?? Wat are you talking about..??

.. " Arreee seriously bol naaaa.." He said..

.. " You remember we are not talking from two months..?? We fought last time...?? " I was still laughing..

.. " I know dat.. So wats new in dat..? We do that every now and thn.." He replied

.. " You are too much Prem.. Why you called me ? " I asked

.. " I was missing you ree.. I told Sheetal I will call you today.. and she was shocked.. And I know you are missing me too.." He chuckled.

.." Idiot, I am missing you since I removed you from friend list.. " I said him.

.. " I knew that, After all you cant live without me.. " He was flirting.. Nothing new for me.. We do that all the time with each other.. And I kind of enjoy that too.. :D :P

.. " Shut up.. Who said you that? Its nothing like that.. " I knew wat he said.. It was true..

.. " Ohh is it soo..?? Thats why even after fighting so many times I am still your best buddy.. " He chuckled..

.. I laguhed.. I was feeling happy.. I was talking with MY Best Buddy.. Even after a huge fight we were talking like nothing was happened between us.. 'Sorry' was not needed even.. I guess thats why he is My Best Buddy.. ♥

.. Every girl whether she is single or in a relationship need a Best Friend in her life.. With whom she can share everything.. Bond of Best Friends are above all.. I know he will be there for me at any time..And same from my side.. Even If I message him late night, He will be there.. Understanding between us is so strong that sumtyms words r not needed.. He know me so well that from my one message he can guess wats my mood.. And without much effort he can make me smile.. :)

.. Yes we fight.. We flirt.. We laugh .. And We love each other as a Best Buddies.. ♥ .. Relation between Best Friends is most undefined relationship.. Even if you talk wid dem after long time.. Things remains the same.. Lucky is every person who got their Best Buddy with them.. :) :)

.. Truly said.. " When God cant give Some relation as your Blood relations.. Dey make them as Your Best Buddies.. :) :) ♥ ♥ "
Khushi ♥

I *Screwed* Up Everything..

16th Dec. 2012.. 6.30 pm..

" This distance will kill me.. Please leave your work and come back to me.. " I said him, We were chatting on YM.. I was missing him alot.. He is out of country fr his business trip.

.. " I want to .. But I Cant .. I have to complete my work here..Please try to understand me.. " He replied..

" Fine.. If you cant come here den M leaving this city.. I cant stay here everyday missing you.. " I was damm frustrated.

" No sweetheart.. I cant allow you for that.. You are not going anywhere.. You gt dat..? " He said.

" Fine I will be here and screwing up my life.. And you better watch that.. " I was out of my mind..

.. I was damm frustrated.. I was not able to meet him.. Insecurities, Anger was high now.. All I wanted him to be here anyhow.. But I knew its not gonna happen.. My mind was not working at all.. All I wanted to make him feel that I am gonna screw my life If he doesnt come here.. I was out wid friends till late night.. I knew dis would bother him a lot.. And It did too.. He asked me many times to go back home.. He tried everything he could.. But I was damm angry.. I didnt listened to him.. I was back home late night.. He was awake.. Waiting for me.. Damm worried.. I kept fighting with him whole night.. I was cursing him for going der.. I was blaming him for making me cry.. And all night he was trying to make me believe that he also need me As much as I needed him.. But I was just not listening to him..

.. He didnt slept that night.. Although he had presentation next day in office, he was with me all the time.. I was still nt realizing my mistake.. Dat was the worst night ever.. We didnt fought this much ever..

I told him, " Fine if you dont want to come here.. You better forget me.. I cant keep waiting for you every single day.."

He was crying now (I guess).. He tried his best to make me convince, " Babu Please dont say that.. All I have is your love and support here.. Wat I will do without you.. " I was not ready to listen anything..

.. I replied, " No I dont mean anything to you.. All you have is your family and office.. I am no where.. "

.."Why are you saying so sweetheart.. I am alive just because of you.. You have given me my life back.. My only reason of smile is you.. " He typed with tears in his eyes..

.." These are just words.. And I know that now.. " I was hurting him a lot.. ( That was not JUST WORDS... I knew dat.. But I was so angry.. I didnt realized wat I am saying.. )

I was offline.. I switched off my cell.. I didnt wanted him to reach to me by anyway.. It was early morning.. I slept in anger.. But he didnt.. How could he.. After two hours I waked up I took my cell .. I was reading our chats again...

.. Shittt Man... How could I do this to him... Wat rubbish I told him.. Yes I realized my mistake... I had screwed up everything.. I knew he do love me a lot.. And he care for me more than anything.. Still I fought with him and dat too from last night..

.. I messaged him.. " If you are awake, Please come online.. I need to talk with you.. " I was praying dat he should be awake..

.. And he was der.. " Say Sweetheart.. Wat happened..?? " My eyes filled with tears... After all drama.. He was still so nice to me.. I was guilty.. Damm guilty.. I was crying now..

.. " I dnt have words to say you Sorry.. I am such a dumb.. I told so many things even after knowing the truth.." I said with heavy heart..

.. " Ssshhhhh... You dont have to be sorry sweetheart.. I understand you completely.. " He replied.. His reply made me more guilty..

.. " No you please punish me for watever I did.. " I told him

" How can I punish myself by giving you punishment.. I am selfish sweetheart.. Dont you know that..? " He tried to make me smile..

.. Damm.. Wat a stupid person I am.. I made him cry who always tried to make me smile..

.. " You know.. My love for you will not change ever.. Even if you hurt me 100 times..! I love you more now.. " He said with a smile..

.. I smiled back.. I am lucky.. Lucky to have him in my life.. But did I really value him..?? His love..? Did I took him for granted..?? I failed to understand him.. To give him support when I needed him the most..

..People dont have replacement like other things.. Dont hurt them who loves you a lot.. Because Dey will not hurt you back but they may leave you.. And wat you will have is only regrets with You.. I am guilty for wat I did but it wont heal his pain.. I know he is still wid me because he loves me ... So think twice before you speak anything...

.." I am sorry sweetheart.. I hope you wont leave me for this stupidity..Because I cant evn imagine my life without you... ;( ;( " I messaged him..

.. Khushi ♥

Project making with vansh..♥ seriously a cute one!

14th november,2010.
Class 10.
Children's day.
Mam's tution.

Students were hitting mam's room. Everybody out there was swinging in party mood,while there wasn't a month left to hit our pre-finals. But none cared. So did I. 

I was on the balcony sipping my limca. Inside the music was going high. People were going crazy. Clicks! Clicks! Clicks! All were taking pictures for what joy I couldn't understand. Till class 10 I was never into clicking pictures and uploading it on facebook. I always took it as show off.

The clock striked 8:00 clock. My mobile buzzed.
'Yup say' I picked up the line
'Where are you?' The voice from the other side inquired.
'Mam's tution..why?' I questioned back.
'What are hell are you up to? Huh' vansh shouted
'What..what are you talking about? Why are you shouting on me' I couldn't relate what he was talking about
'Have you done your project?' He inquired
'No..btw what project?' I was confused
' Your economics project..just look at yourself you don't even remember' he was furious
'Hell..man..how can I forget' I touched my forehead and nearly lost my sense.
15th november is the last day for submitting my project. And if I don't I will be marked 0 out of 100,and I really can't screw up my economics paper just like that.
'Just leave that place right now..go back home and call me up' he ordered
'Yup..o.ok..I'll' I stammered
I rushed to mam and took a leave. Mam obviously didn't like the way I left the party in the middle.

9:30pm
I reached back home. Called up vansh.
'Pass me the topics' he was direct on the point.
'I don't even know the topics' I said softly
'Screw you cherry! How can you be like this? Why can't you be serious? You think everything is a joke' he literally shouted.
'Don't shout I'll manage' I replied
'Hell with your manage' he banged down the call.

I was screwed I knew it very well still I didn't try to show it . I tried calling out my friends all were busy with their projects. I jotted down the topics and passed it to vansh.

I opened my lappy. Googled my topics. The internet connection was off.
'Shit man,don't do this to me' I was about to cry. I was thunderstruck. My eyes were fixed on the ' page cannot be displayed'. This is certainly not happening to me. I tried to cool my mind but it actually didn't help.

I called up vansh. My voice got chocked.
'What happened' he asked with utter disgust.
' My net isn't working'. I broke down
' Good now deal with it' he was rude.
I couldn't understand what to do next so I hung up.
I locked myself inside. Switched off the light and was crying continuously. I just couldn't stop cryng.

My bell rung. It didn't go for another time , Mom must have opened the door. I didn't care. There was a thudding sound on my door. I gave a damn. The banging went on for a long time.
'Please don't disturb me' I screamed
Again somebody banged. I got up from my bed opened the door and was about to have a verbal fight with the person banging on my door.
As I opened I saw vansh. I was about to shut the door on his face when he pushed the door and came in. He settled himself on the couch and passed on his napkin.
'Stop crying' he said.
I didn't react. I stood there like a statue.
He got his bag with him. He took out his lappy,switched on the light. Connected his photon got all the informations in a jiffy,and my project was 50% done.
I was sitting at one corner of my bed, grabbing my teddy.
'Here you go' he turned the lappy towards me.
'What' I asked. My eyes were totally redbloodshoot.
'You project's information madam' he said.
'Oh..thanks' I said
Stupid get your project's sheet now,and start writing and if you need any help call me up okay.
As he said he came up to me pulled my cheeks made me smile and left.

3:30am
My fingers weren't working anymore and I was still left with 10 more pages. My brain wasn't working. My hand wasn't working. Sleep was creeping up.
I pressed the green button the call got connected to vansh.
'Hello' a sleepy voice as expected
'I can't complete my project' I said in a low voice
'Why' his sleep got vanished
'I can't write any more. My fingers are paining'
'But..no..leave..you sleep..I'll just check out bas tell me till where you completed' he asked
'No its fine I'll handel my eco teacher' I said
'Please shut up and say till where'
I told whatever information he needed.
'Fine you sleep' he hung up.
I didn't drag myself too much to know what he wants to do with all this. I just hit my bed and was off to sleep.

5:00 am
My mobile was buzzing. I was too sleepy to pick up the call. I missed it. Again it buzzed. I received it.
'Keep your main gate open I'm coming' it was vansh
'You crazy..its 5 am now' I was shocked. I said but no result, he already disconnected the call.

I went down open my door and was waiting for him. I saw him coming within 10 mins. He had hell lots of paper in his hand. I really didn't have any clue about all those papers. He entered. We went up to my room. He sat down and furiously started cutting out pictures from the paper. As per my conception it was some graphs related to my project. Then he turned on his lappy and copied the part which I left out. I swear man he was too damn fast. Our handwriting didn't match for sure but he tried his best to write like me. He didn't even look at me once while doing his work. In two hours my project was complete. Starting from my cover to my titles. My pictures. Everything.
The project was just perfect.
I just couldn't believe it by my own eyes.

Love you I hugged him tightly. He hugged me back. I was too damn happy.
Anybody will be.
Isn't it cute to be in your lovers arm early in the morning after such a hectic day?
isn't it cute to see that someone is too concerned about your project when you don't even give a damn?
Isn't it cute to find out that somebody cares for you soo much that no matter what the time is he/she is still there for you?

P.s So, sometimes be silly and see who cares for you but yeah surely don't screw up your life for that :)

Cherry♥